Name the thing.
Take ten minutes. Write down the symptom you've been calling a character flaw.
I can't focus. I can't sleep. I'm catastrophizing. I'm short with the team. I lose my temper at small things. I check email at 3 AM and can't stop. I cry in the car. I can't remember the last time I felt joy at work.
Now: is there a clinical name for what you're describing?
Anxiety. Depression. Burnout. ADHD. PTSD. Hypomania. Don't self-diagnose — the exercise isn't to land on a label. The exercise is to consider that what you're carrying might have a name.
If it does, the next move is a professional — not a pep talk, not a self-help book, not another year of telling yourself to try harder. Most founders skip this step for years. Nash's life shortened until he didn't. Naming the thing is the move.
A note for founders who think this doesn't apply: the thing about diagnosable symptoms is that the people carrying them are usually the last to notice. Your closest relationship — your Alicia — sees it first. Ask them.
